Missing you

I started my day with you on my mind

My night will end the same this time.

Memories of holding you tight in my arms

Remembering the reason I fight so hard.

Waking up without you by my side,

Each morning kills me inside.

Knowing you chose her is not what hurts..

Knowing you don’t miss me is much worse.

My love for you, even in absence just grows..

Come home baby and hold me close.

Tell me things will be different in every way.

Tell me your heart is here to stay.

Reality I know is not what this is..

can I wake up yet. Can I give in.


Blind Soldier

Blind Soldier

Each day when I open my eyes and realize it’s not you by my side, it truly kills me inside. Day to day, the motions play, my hearts not in it, for you hold the keys. However, you just don’t see, my love I think, has grown too deep to even see reality. If you felt the same, or even close at all, you wouldnt keep trying so hard, just to fall. I know the man you are, the man you said you wanted to be. Your doing none of those things and it’s killing me. I need a rock. A safe haven. A place we can be. The potential I see, it amazes me. The strength and bravery each and every day, my soldier you will always stay. Hero in my eyes, if only you could see, what it is you really do to me. I worried about you, don’t say not to. It’s not something I can help, not something I can change, hold me, tell me things aren’t going to be the same. Pattern after pattern, routine on repeat.

The time has come

Single and alive To 3 kids and tied, All in what seemed Just one Night.


“Come, spend the weekend with me, Let me show you the city.” 20 years old, a weekend in Madison with out a fake is kind of a bust, so we decided on a movie. Quick dinner at Denny’s and off to the show. The title now, I dont recall, but the way my heart felt, I remember well. He cooked the second night, and “oh my” was it good. The next thing you know I’m back at home. Stomach pains, chills, and bleeding, ER trip with my bestie. There’s a baby now, but it’s struggling to stay, the RH gene is dominating today. He covered his shift, drove for hours, we told the news. After some time, decided to see what happens, now here we are, out daughter is 5. Life’s take a turn that I just don’t like. He’s a wonderful person, but not a great man. He can be a great dad, but only in convenience. The hurtful words, the lack of respect.. the angry tone and bigger threats. I see how she is growing, it’s just not fair. She deserves the world, happiness, and joy. Today the changes begin, to turn things around. For she is the only thing that matters anymore. Our love is gone, the light is dark, but together apart we can give her a new start.


Afraid of what’s lurking in the dark

Is it him? Or just a shadow in the wind?

The door cracks open, a short scream escapes

But soon enough, I’m bound and gagged.

Squirming, screaming, trying to run. 

Muscles tense, not yet undone. 

And still no one comes, or hears the noise. 

Now he’s gone, with his sick little joys. 

Hiding in the bathroom, door locked and bound

No words or sounds escape my mouth.

Morning comes, not a single sound.

Secret glances repaint the scene. 

I ran away today, without any notice of my pain.

My story is now told, the truth is out.

No more trusting, not young, not old.

The Journey Begins Today

The morning sun rises, my eyes slowly part.

It’s your face that I see in my heart. 

Awake now, your no where to be found. 

This time only a dream, soon baby we will be reality. 

Loving you keeps me going strong, slowly each day brings you closer to me.

You say the past is gone, but without it we’re all wrong.

You say only the future and what you want to see. 

Does that future still include me?

If the path was easy, baby I would already be there. 

Bare with me, trust I am trying. 

The journey is rocky, the path is long, but someday soon, we will have our own song. 

Only A Dream

Got you on my mind All day and every night

You’ve shown me the way

To bring back my light

But when I look up and I can’t see your face

Makes me wonder who now won the race

Each day slowly I work toward my best

But baby without you I can’t even rest

Life took a turn the wrong direction

Lost for a long time in my own digression

Lost sight of who I used to be

Only you can bring that back to me

To love you I wish were just a lie

Because with you I refuse to hide

Each day new a life should start

Just please baby don’t break my heart

You want reality you want fantasy 

Then baby I got all you need 

For the first time in a long time 

Things truely feel real 


Air humid as clouds slowly roll in.

The signs of havoc every where you look.

Hearts racing as the truth unfolds

All the truth we’ve never told

Love is blind and hope is gone

Fixing this just seems all wrong

Broken glass storms a vast

One last cast

Deep breath, hold on tight

Come on baby one more ride