I started my day with you on my mind
My night will end the same this time.
Memories of holding you tight in my arms
Remembering the reason I fight so hard.
Waking up without you by my side,
Each morning kills me inside.
Knowing you chose her is not what hurts..
Knowing you don’t miss me is much worse.
My love for you, even in absence just grows..
Come home baby and hold me close.
Tell me things will be different in every way.
Tell me your heart is here to stay.
Reality I know is not what this is..
can I wake up yet. Can I give in.
Each day when I open my eyes and realize it’s not you by my side, it truly kills me inside. Day to day, the motions play, my hearts not in it, for you hold the keys. However, you just don’t see, my love I think, has grown too deep to even see reality. If you felt the same, or even close at all, you wouldnt keep trying so hard, just to fall. I know the man you are, the man you said you wanted to be. Your doing none of those things and it’s killing me. I need a rock. A safe haven. A place we can be. The potential I see, it amazes me. The strength and bravery each and every day, my soldier you will always stay. Hero in my eyes, if only you could see, what it is you really do to me. I worried about you, don’t say not to. It’s not something I can help, not something I can change, hold me, tell me things aren’t going to be the same. Pattern after pattern, routine on repeat.
Single and alive To 3 kids and tied, All in what seemed Just one Night.
“Come, spend the weekend with me, Let me show you the city.” 20 years old, a weekend in Madison with out a fake is kind of a bust, so we decided on a movie. Quick dinner at Denny’s and off to the show. The title now, I dont recall, but the way my heart felt, I remember well. He cooked the second night, and “oh my” was it good. The next thing you know I’m back at home. Stomach pains, chills, and bleeding, ER trip with my bestie. There’s a baby now, but it’s struggling to stay, the RH gene is dominating today. He covered his shift, drove for hours, we told the news. After some time, decided to see what happens, now here we are, out daughter is 5. Life’s take a turn that I just don’t like. He’s a wonderful person, but not a great man. He can be a great dad, but only in convenience. The hurtful words, the lack of respect.. the angry tone and bigger threats. I see how she is growing, it’s just not fair. She deserves the world, happiness, and joy. Today the changes begin, to turn things around. For she is the only thing that matters anymore. Our love is gone, the light is dark, but together apart we can give her a new start.
Afraid of what’s lurking in the dark
Is it him? Or just a shadow in the wind?
The door cracks open, a short scream escapes
But soon enough, I’m bound and gagged.
Squirming, screaming, trying to run.
Muscles tense, not yet undone.
And still no one comes, or hears the noise.
Now he’s gone, with his sick little joys.
Hiding in the bathroom, door locked and bound
No words or sounds escape my mouth.
Morning comes, not a single sound.
Secret glances repaint the scene.
I ran away today, without any notice of my pain.
My story is now told, the truth is out.
No more trusting, not young, not old.
The morning sun rises, my eyes slowly part.
It’s your face that I see in my heart.
Awake now, your no where to be found.
This time only a dream, soon baby we will be reality.
Loving you keeps me going strong, slowly each day brings you closer to me.
You say the past is gone, but without it we’re all wrong.
You say only the future and what you want to see.
Does that future still include me?
If the path was easy, baby I would already be there.
Bare with me, trust I am trying.
The journey is rocky, the path is long, but someday soon, we will have our own song.
Got you on my mind All day and every night
You’ve shown me the way
To bring back my light
But when I look up and I can’t see your face
Makes me wonder who now won the race
Each day slowly I work toward my best
But baby without you I can’t even rest
Life took a turn the wrong direction
Lost for a long time in my own digression
Lost sight of who I used to be
Only you can bring that back to me
To love you I wish were just a lie
Because with you I refuse to hide
Each day new a life should start
Just please baby don’t break my heart
You want reality you want fantasy
Then baby I got all you need
For the first time in a long time
Things truely feel real
Air humid as clouds slowly roll in.
The signs of havoc every where you look.
Hearts racing as the truth unfolds
All the truth we’ve never told
Love is blind and hope is gone
Fixing this just seems all wrong
Broken glass storms a vast
One last cast
Deep breath, hold on tight
Come on baby one more ride